I'm such a Prick...

I just hate myself right now, but what makes this time special? Someone comes to me for guidance, to tell me about his problems but I was a total asshole and basically blamed him for it all. You see, he's gay, and is having problems with his relationship. He thinks that he and his BF will break up soon and it's because of the fact that he (the guy I'm helping) cheated during the first month of dating. It all turns out that his boyfriend is still angry, irritated and a bit embarrassed by it and wants to end the relationship. I tried my best to give a psychological point of view of WHY he's bringing it up now and didn't bring it up until recently... I basically kept going back to all the problems starting with the fact that he had cheated on him... It's true though, all the problems stem from that little thing...

Anyway, he started yelling at me and bringing stuff up because he figured that I was insulting him... I kind of was, but not to be mean you know? He says that if they do end up breaking up he'd wait only a few weeks until jumping right into another relationship; which I think is a very bad idea... I do recall him telling me that he would like the freedoms of being single again but why would he want to jump right into another relationship if he wants to be single?

Blogger doesn't suck...

I've just been updating my other blogs, which is only like two others. I also have a livejournal, and a myspace blog. I've been updating my Myspace blog with political opinions and stuff, so if you happen to have caught my blog on here that stated my Myspace ID then you should add me as a friend and check them out!

America is NOT a fucking church

Seriously. All the religious idiots who try to impose THEIR lifestyle on the majority of people are dumb asses. I'm sick of all this shit where if one is not apart of a christian sector, they are damned to hell. WHO GIVES A FUCK?! I make my choice to not support such ideologies because they are FLAWED. Why should I live by a doctrine that promotes hate? Those who say it doesn't should go fuck themselves, seriously. You see religious assholes standing on corners, ABORTION CAUSES CANCER, GAYS GO TO HELL, YOU WILL GO TO HELL IF YOU DON'T SUPPORT JESUS... I'm sick of it. All you idiots who believe that everyone should 'love' your God, should love your beliefs, it's time for you to shove it.

What really sets me off is that stupid Proposition 8. I could have sworn that Religion is not supposed to be involved in any sort of politics? What the hell was the fucking Mormon church doing giving millions of dollars to YES on Prop 8??

I don't want to sound extreme, but I'm tired of this. It's time that people stand up against those oppressive, pompous, idiotic people, and fight hate with hate. So the next time I see some idiot standing with a sign saying that I'm going to hell, I'm going to punch him/her in the face.

The Christian God says to not pass judgement on others - that's exactly what they are doing!

Warmth of Your Arms...

Love is something a person can't control right? How does one know if he/she is in love? Is it the excitement one might get when the person calls him/her and talk for four hours? Is it when one thinks a large chunk of the day about what it would feel like if the person would simply hold him/her in his/her arms?

I feel more and more melancholy as days pass by. I can't stop thinking about it... Did I make a mistake? Is it far too late now?

Fire Inside.... ?

Hm. I haven't written for awhile. It's not because I hate blogger, but because I haven't had a reason to blog. It's been rather neutral for awhile around me. Not so much to blog about, so there's no reason to.

I bought a bunch of DVD's, My Spanish Coach for DS, Pokemon Platinum and Resident Evil 3 to keep myself occupied. So far it's all working, I'm not so bored. I've also been downloading a lot more lately. Thank god for torrents! Boy, if you don't know what those are, you had best look them up!

Anyway, I found a spell to help protect good health. I plan on using it for when I hang out with my friends on Halloween. We all need good health, and well, I want it.

Spell To Protect Good Health

Light a red candle. Say:

I invoke Gangida, great protector!
May we look after your treasures,
as our bodies are your treasures!

Light a black candle. Say:

Nullify disease as it approaches this body
Arm my blood with guards To slay all intruders!

Light a green candle. Say:

Gangida, grant protection
from all imbalances in the heavens,
from the earth, from plants, from air;
from my past and from my future.
Protect me from east to south,
from west to north!
May my body be rendered healthy
under Gangida's protection!

Days...

Okay, I have been without internet, but that hasn't stopped drama!

1. I ate some cheese that we bought the other day and guess what? I got Salmonella Poisoning! It sucks! I feel so weak and tired right now... I have one of the serious symptoms, but I can't go to the doctor... I'll just keep drinking liquids and trying to rest... Jeez, I love cheese... How could it do this to me?

2. The Ouija Board! Holy cow! The other day I was playing it with my mom and I think we encountered a powerful demon! The entire room like sank 10 degrees and it was getting really cold. I felt slight pressure on my arm ( as if someone was touching me) and a powerful draft. My mom was getting creeped out so I told her that if it answers "Yes" or doesn't answer we'll stop playing. She said okay, and I asked it if it was a demon. I got no response. Previously it was very response and everything. So we told it goodbye and moved it to goodbye, and then it stopped moving. It felt as if something VERY strong was pushing on it, like it wasn't ready to stop talking. I mean it was intense, the pressure of that thing! We managed to get it off of the board, and I turned on the light... Immediately the temperature went back to normal...

Knowing me though, I wanted to keep playing it. It intrigued me, I need someone to play it with me when I encounter those things... It's so fascinating, I really want to talk to it again.

License, School, and feelings...

I finally went and got my license today. I've been driving around for a little bit and it's a good feeling that I can take myself places without having to worry about a ride. :D I went to the YMCA today and worked out for a little bit, and then I went back to my High school to visit my old teachers.

The guy at front didn't want to let me in though, well at first. After awhile he allowed it and I got in. I was shocked to see that my picture was on a wall along with all the 2007 Graduates from the school; what a memory it was. I forgot how the school was and everything. There are a lot of things different but it has the same feeling. I loved hanging out with friends and stuff, now a lot of my old friends are scattered, away... I'm glad that a lot of my really good friends are still around though. :D

I visited with my teaches for about 10 minutes and then I left. Boring huh? Not really, I was able to get out of the house which is always good I suppose. :)


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Although all is well, I feel pretty sad though. From seeing all the pictures from everyone on the plaque, I know that a lot of them probably won't be alive for the 10 year reunion. I know it's weird that I'm sad about that - there was a lot of people I didn't even know... But hopefully all can show up, along with all my friends. :)