Is it True?

I've always liked how music can really be therapeutic through certain times. After going through hectic, sad, painful, or just happy times, music has always had a place in all of them. There's always a song, somewhere, that can relate to you in that time. Whether it's sad, or happy, you can relate to the feeling it gives you. I love music, I used to hate it so much (because of not having a defined taste yet) but now I can't imagine not having it. Music is poetry, nutrition for the soul, happiness in sounds, and a powerful way of expression. Human emotions can be felt through some songs, and some of them are so powerful that it's possible to feel those effects.

Some songs that I get powerful feels from are, but not restricted to:

"Is it true?" by Yohanna
"Gomenasai" by t.A.T.u.
"Slipped Away" by Avril Lavigne
"My Immortal" by Evanescence
"Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson
"The Wings" by Gustavo Santaolalla
"J'attends l'amour" by Jenifer
"Who Knew?" by P!nk
"Drive You Home" by Garbage
"Better" by Plumb


Here's a music video to "Is it True?" by Yohanna:

Hectic.

School has officially been going on for about a month now and it has kept me tied down. So much studying, which seems futile sometimes, along with managing life has become VERY difficult. I have to say by far this has been my most stressful year in YEARS. Money, health, and everything else is making me feel very overwhelmed.

I've started working at my school as a part of my Work Study. I have no idea when I get paid, but I hope it's soon! I have medical bills to pay on, regular bills to pay on, and stuff to buy... I have been looking up grants and stuff (For personal use) but it hasn't been working out. Gosh, sometimes I just don't know what to do... life's gotten hectic.

PS. I washed my iPod... probably due to having so much to think about... I really want a new one.

L...U...s....T... ?

It's kind of funny that the person I used to dislike so much - is the one that I'm really starting to like. To think that I used to blame this person for the problems that occurred between the person I used to like, and now I'm totally liking them on so many levels. I think it might include some lustful elements but I think all potential relationships do. We click on some levels but we do have our differences but that's another reason why I'm starting to like this person.

There are some things I'm holding back but if things get very serious, then I will spill the beans... or truths. Hopefully this is more than just lustful thoughts and hopefully something more.

Не верь, не бойся, не проси

t.A.T.u has totally moved up in my list of favourite singers. I don't know why their music has missed me. I have always liked "All The Things She Said" although I didn't know that they had originally sung the song; after listening to it on the satellite radio I found them out, got their albums, and am now totally hooked!

This song is what originally had gotten them famous, it was when they had sung and represented Russia in Eurovision.

Sensitive Issues

Such as those that cause a fury between the right and left. I've always been a pro-choicer and will always be one but I just have to say that once you experience an abortion that happens in your family, it really touches base with you. My older brother had a girlfriend that he had loved for such a longtime, and would have an off and on relationship and then she ended up pregnant. This was after a series of off and on relationship over six years. She then aborted the child and wanted nothing to do with him. I read his blog post about it and it feels sad. I mean, I could have been an uncle but am not due to her choice to just not have it, with no good reason whatsoever...

Tender Sugar

Lately I have been in a Metroid mood. I've always loved the games (except for the older ones, in which I have yet to play) and started playing the two that I have again. In Metroid Prime I didn't manage to get 100% completion (came close at 97%) and tried again and managed. Now I'm starting again on Echoes and am totally loving it. I don't have a Wii but next school quarter I plan on getting one to get to play the third one. Ever since my 'awakening' of playing them again I have become obsessed. Samus is awesome! haha.

On a much different note, I feel a little worthless. I feel like the knowledge that I have gained is waning due to the lack of not using it. I review, sometimes, my psychology book to have a type of recovering and it works but I fear I have lost most of that and my Math skills. The worthlessness comes from the feeling that I am not smarter than I was last year, I guess. Hopefully this feeling passes because I know I'm not an idiot, I just need to work harder toward my studies.

Empathy

It's kind of interesting that a person I disliked so much to the point that if given the chance, I would have beaten the crap out of them, I would have, but what's funny is how fast I can feel so much empathy and sympathy for them. I'm talking to them right now on a messenger and I can't help but feel a need to help them out so that they don't feel pain anymore.

Perhaps that's the kind of feelings that a future, hope to be, Psychologist needs: empathy + sympathy to help people, to feel a connection but also to be able to help them through their struggles. Hm, perhaps this can count as experience for me? Helping out people all the time is a good thing, since I am very altruistic, I can see how being a Psychologist can be a good career for me.